A Resounding Gong Clanging Cymbals

Ouch! I love LOVE love my family, but I write this post with my tail between my legs. How many times am I the clanging cymbal?!

“Dirty clothes in the basket. Shoes in your closet. Feed the geckos….clang. Clang. Clang. Why do you always have to leave your shoes out?!”

I so badly want to be a loving wife and mother but I so often, so very often, fall so very short! I need Jesus!

Love is patient. Errr. I am not a patient person. It doesn’t take much for me to get irritated.

It is not self seeking. “Can I just have 5 minutes to myself?!” Head down, ears back, tail tucked as I think about how self seeking I am.

Love keeps no record of wrongs. “You always…” How often do I pull that list out on my husband?!

It is not easily angered. OK! I give up!

AND YES! That is where I need to be! I can not be a patient Mommy without Jesus! I can not be a wife that does not keep a record of wrongs without Jesus!

And that is what matters to me! To be the wife and mother that Christ calls me to be, to daily show my family how much I love them by letting Jesus be perfect love through me. Because I can’t! I fall so short of the
1 Corinthians 13 love!

Love is more than a feeling! Love is action. Love is changing for someone, love is choosing their needs above your own, love is being patient with my daughter in the morning before I’ve had coffee, love is staying in budget for my husband instead of demanding what I want, love is surrendering to Jesus because He is perfect love!

And these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.

LOVE NEVER FAILS!

I Corinthians 13

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26 thoughts on “A Resounding Gong Clanging Cymbals

  1. Beautiful my sister! And so spot on. As I read today’s blog, I saw me on every line. I’m praying for more of God’s LOVE and PATIENCE. Be blessed my sister and keep striving to be the woman God has called you to be. Our Father is well pleased with your service.

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  2. Ok, so maybe I am going to seem a bit controversial here. I was thinking about blogging on this very scripture yesterday…just did not get it done. These are wonderful guidelines and goals. We are not Jesus, however, we are humans made in his likeness and are, hopefully, striving for perfection. A perfection we will not attain on this earth. That same love, the perfect version of it, is offered to us. Our HONEST hopes and intentions are not missing from God’s sight and understanding. I, for one, am striving and letting God know of my intentions and need for assistance. It is wonderful how peace within can spread to peace in our little part of the world. I hope you won’t be too hard on yourself or the family you love so much, as evidenced in your beautifully written blog. Sending you peace and love right this minute!

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  3. You aren’t alone, Caroline. I too heard recently and for the first time in over 50 years that the passage in 1 Cor. 13 is meant as a goal (not an instant expection) AND a model of Jesus love for us. He is love. We are humans learning how to love. Keep on pressing on, friend. No one will ever have arrived in this life. The apostle James says that if anyone is able to bridle his tongue, he is a perfect “man”. Well, we all know there is no such thing. lol. I don’t think Jesus wants us “beating ourselves up” when we fail. He never does. I am speaking to myself here too, because I am one of those who tends to be quite hard on myself at times. Getting better, though. I bless you, my friend. You are lovelier than you may realize. Your beautiful heart shines through. Debbie.

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  4. Been thinking about this passage lately too…I totally identify with striving but falling miserably short. We so need the Holy Spirit to enable us to bear fruit! Apart from Him we can do nothing but by His Spirit we can do all things! Thanks for posting 🙂

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  5. An after thought: I am a model to you? I appreciate your kind words, but they scare me a little too. I struggle with the same things you do and I am no better. We are all on the same level, so to speak. No one is better than anyone else. All we can do is encourage and pray for each other while we press on in our call and make every attempt to honor God. But …….. thank you. You are very kind and it does motivate me to do better in my own life. God bless you, sister, and may your week-end be filled with peace and love. xo Debbie.

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