I doubt. There are times in my past that I have doubted God. I ask those questions:
Is he really there?
Does he love me?
Why do I hurt so much?
If I am honest, I constantly choose my plan over his. I want comfort more than I want to serve. I want money more than I want to give. I want people to like me more than doing what is right.
If I am honest, I worry about tomorrow while I am sleeping in a warm bed and while there is food in my kitchen.
I am lazy when there is work to be done. I blame others when I sin. I complain when I should be giving thanks. I fear when I should trust.
But if I am honest, I know that you have never done any of those things. God, you are nothing but goodness and love and mercy and abundance and truth. And if I am honest, I know, I always know that you love me. You always have and you always will.